After six years I am saying goodbye. It is a position that I outgrew and a job that now feels small. Limited by the opinions of others, not having the freedom to make a contribution, any contribution. Frustration set in,reluctant to get to work, completing set tasks, alarmed by the low level of thinking that was asked of me. How to reconcile the two. In my private life I exist, I matter, I speak, I am heard, I write. In my job I fade away, invisible, denied the many requests. What to do? I return to my vision and say I spend 40 hours doing something that does not contribute to my vision. Something that leaves me uninspired at the end of the day, drained from inactivity and I decide to get out. Vision or bust. I made a list of all the people that I knew and honed in one one person. Sought him out professionally and said this is what I can do, this is what I want to do, tell me what’s possible. Six months of him figuring out how best to make organisational space and have buy-in from stakeholders and then the offer of a job.
For me it’s not about the money or the title. It’s 40 invaluable hours each and every week that will take me that much closer to my vision. Here it comes, I watch it unfold.