I am home and I feel it. I am anxious to see what will change because of all my decisions and how it plays out. I am fearful and pumped to get it started.
This blog has immediately changed. I will no longer have the luxury of blogging during the morning period, since it is a mad scramble for me to get to work on mornings. As a result, I will blog on evenings after the work day is done. Different themes may be present as my interactions from the workday may be what I focus on at the end of the day.
Interesting that I am almost halfway through this challenge and life tosses up the reality that I need to make a change to keep my commitment alive. Can I get a break? I mean this is just a blog, it is not a major life goal. Is it possible for once to plan something, do it and everything goes smoothly and accordingly?
Every-time I make a plan there is a test. “Do you really want this?” “Let’s see how badly you want this.” I am thrown a curveball to swerve me away from the intention. This is a constant, plan to do something and a distraction pops up glittering with gold as an opportunity or a pit of disappointment.
I am an old hand at this. I know the rhythm of achievement: choose, decide, plan, act, curveball, tweak, shift, reset, curveball, decide, plan,act.
This is my mantra when I see the hoops of distraction appear. I summon the fortitude to jump through them, wriggle below then, leap over them or go around them. Sometimes I am not low enough and I bounce my head, my jump falls short or I need a push when I get stuck in the hoop and other times there seems no way around it.
This is a test of my commitment. How much do I want it? It is an opportunity to check in, “Do I really want it?
The rhythm – chose, decide, act etc – gives me momentum and becomes the drumroll to my actions. The challenges sweeten my achievements and add dimensions to my war-tales. They are now fodder for interviews, laughter to share with friends and material for blogging.
Without these my story will have no flair.
So now I step back and ask myself “What is the purpose of the blog?” “How will changing the time that I write affect what I write?”
Adjustments, changes, that is what my life is about. Regardless of how small or how big, there will always be a change to make based on a decision that I made. I have signed up for this. I am OK with this.
What changes have you made to your routine? How do you make room for your personal desires?